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I am just going through a lot at home right now. A lot. I use this site as a majority to give my mind some respite from my daily life and it's become even more important to my sanity recently.

I have spent 6 years of my life caring for a dear woman who was diagnosed at 30 years old with Parkinsons. She has become a maternal figure for me as my home life was never a great one, she's a dear friend, and one of the most genuine people I have ever met. Shes young, not even 70 yet. Through Fathers Day weekend she declined so rapidly that when I came home on Monday, I took one look at her and started making phone calls to her family and friends. We are so lucky to have Hospice services and they do wonderful work. I'm no stranger to end of life care, but this one is hitting me hard.

My guy friend got jumped and pistol whipped yesterday by a group of thugs...went in for stithes and found out he has stage 3 stomach and testicular cancer...and he's 20. His girlfriend's (my friend too) best friend OD'd on heroine two nights ago. She had no history of substance abuse prior to this.

My mind is overwhelmed. My heart hurts.

I come here to get away and relax. I went to flush my group of mares who were ready today and accidentally mass flushed three of them and knocked my funds dramatically back. I'm lucky I have 16,000 hbs a day coming in, and I should be able to make up what is lost eventually. But until that happens I may step back a little bit and sell some genetics I have sitting around to try to raise some funds back up.

I'm not asking for anything from anybody except a shoulder to lean on and some positive words. This week has really taken a toll on me, and we aren't quite through yet.

Please send your best thoughts and vibes to my dear friend.

Thank you for listening.